A Mediocore Plan + Workout + Day

I am a goal oriented person.

Sometimes I really wish I wasn't. I just want my brain to relax, but at this stage of life - it just can't and I am done fighting with myself.

At a nice breakfast, a few snacks (unnecessary), started to cry when looking at bills, at a protein bar (aka a candy bar if you look at these ingredients) and will now do a 10 minute mediocre, "At least I showed up" workout in pajama pants.

Listen, I can't do all of this in one day. I have to accept that. This shit is hard and I'm exhausted. Period.

I don't have a lot or privacy- or any- and that just drives me insane. Today is a day that living in the living room is really really getting to me. Exhale.

Okay...

Let me plan a 10 minute workout. I can't fail this.

Workout plan:

1. Put on pajamas- done ✔️ 
2. Set a timer on 10 minutes
3. Get favorite kettlebells (one 8kg, 12kg)
4. Put on music or a YouTube video
5. Warm up for 60 seconds
6. Do literally anything. Any move. Any order.
7. Stretch for 60 seconds

I'll report back.... 

found somewhere on the internet

Well, let me say the smell of spicy black bean soup (homemade- yes I made it), didn't make a great backdrop to my training.

• no shoes
• no cares

25 minutes done. Easy. No sweat. Heart rate low, but I got it done.

Today is a hard day for me. I'm just letting it be a hard day.

I feel like I need room to breathe. Space to be myself. I'm struggling today to make sense of it all.